I’m stepping back from the business end of art to enjoy art’s fun.
In a world where it seems ‘all about the sale’ and making a living, it’s been a challenge to disentangle from trying, but I’m feeling my inner flame beginning to burn brighter the more I do. It’s exciting! What a challenge it is to return to the self and quieten the ‘shoulds’ and ‘oughts’.
It’s as though social media was beginning to extinguish my flame. The addiction of sharing and getting ‘likes’ is a nonsense but it’s kind of what happens, I’m ashamed to say!
From starting out as an artist to being an artist now, things have changed so much. From painting quietly and showing work in progress to the odd visitor to the studio to sharing regularly on social media and going world wide instantly. No longer an artist in a local community but part of the world wide stage. It’s kind of exhausting. Exhilarating but exhausting.
And the ‘to do’ list to so called ‘being successful’ gets longer and longer too. I fail at so much of it!
The business end seems to engage a different side of the brain – business feels like ‘the serious adult’, art ‘the happy, playful, creative child!’ It’s easy to get stuck in the middle somehow where neither are really working.
So I’m really trying to listen to how uncomfortable all the art sharing has got for me and allow the creative arty child to have time to herself.
As FM Alexander said “If we keep doing the same thing in the same way we will get the same result.” To change and give ourself new choices we have to stop, pause, allow ‘non-doing’ and see what happens.
This verse seems to invite a disentangling from brain nonsense and be OK with what you are feeling.
“I am nourished by the great mother.”
What a beautiful line!
I didn’t realise the horse I spotted in the photo of the puddle before going in studio showed up in a painting until this morning. I had another fun day resolving old work or in the case of this simply painting over something.